Great News with a twist

For the many people who don't know Devon and I are expecting baby #2 due Aug 30, 2011. Now that I have the great news out here is the twist. As many mothers and soon to be mothers know having a baby is not easy stuff. I am sick a lot crossing my fingers that will leave with the end of the first trimester, but there are never any real guarantees that is going to be the case. As a mother I feel that I should be the support for my husband as he goes to school and take care of those things that he can't do while at work. Add to that being a great mother and to be honest it seems overwhelming to me. I am not perfect and it shows by the looks of our house and the fact that I haven't gotten ready for the day and the day has half way passed. I am tired obviously cause I am pregnant, but I am mostly tired of feeling like I am not helping anyone but myself. I hate that feeling. I like feeling accomplished and that's not happening a lot. Getting me out of my comfort zones is a struggle too. I don't like talking to strangers on the phone cause I feel awkward and my husband agrees, jokingly I am sure, but the point I am trying to make is I need some change, but I just don't know how to accomplish it on my own. So with the help of my Heavenly Father whom I try to communicate with frequently I am going to use this blog as my goal setter/tracker. Now I first want to start with a goal in each area of my life.
1: my daughter has to work with me every day and I am tough on her. My goal is to give her more attention and read her 2 books a day.
2: Clean 1 room a day or do one big chore i.e. laundry and dishes.
3: Shower every morning and get dressed. I always feel more accomplished when I am dressed.
4: Study my scriptures rather than just read them.
5: Exercise every day. Doesn't have to be huge, but enough to get my heart rate going a bit.
6: Call someone especially if it is things needing to be done.
7: Take a well deserved nap and eat all the time :)
Now I realize that this is a huge list and honestly I could add more, but I won't. This works good for me now. I will try to do a couple of these things at a time, so I don't overwhelm myself, but my goal is to be able to accomplish all of these things by the end of the month. Wish me luck.

The Big Update

After four months of not writing on my blog I decided to finally get on and let everyone know how we are doing. As many of you know Devon and I were looking for a Job in Logan all summer with no success. Around September Devon finally got an interview for ICON as a customer service rep. He left from the interview with a job which was a total answer to our prayers. Within the next few weeks we started the move to Logan. We lost some couch pillows along the way and had to trade our big couch for a Dryer ( which I don't mind at all :)) We also couldn't fit our entertainment center in our apartment so we traded ours with a friend which I feel has worked out for the both of us. Anyway when we first moved to Logan we stayed with Devon's cousin for a couple months to get ourselves in better shape financially. We are so grateful for them welcoming us in with open arms. We are now living in a very nice basement apartment in Logan with great rent. It has been fun having to be in charge of our garbage and scraping the driveway during the winter time. I have a full size oven and stove and have never lived in such a big apartment it is so great. Devon is staring school next week and is working full time. It is hard having him gone all the time, but Jaylee and I make it work. I have been working on my cross stitch project that is going to take me forever to complete, I started reading the Harry Potter series again and for Christmas I made Devon a quilt. Jaylee is as cute and fun as ever. She has gotten into Princess and got almost all Princess things for Christmas. We ask her if she is a princess and she tells us " No I'm Jaylee." At least she is proud of being herself. Anyway I am so glad how things have worked out for us. I know that the Lord has had His hands in all that has happened with us and I know that He will continue to bless our lives.

Change Ahead

So I have a lot to write about. As many of you know Devon and I have been looking for a job all summer with no luck. We have been doing everything that we possibly could to not get discouraged and now the time has finally come where change is happening. I feel like I am on a roller coaster the past few months we have been going up the hill slowly and now we are at the point where we are about to shoot down. Ready or not here it comes. Devon got a job at Icon last Tuesday and starts this next Thursday. So within the next few weeks we will be moving. I am sad but also excited. Change is always good no matter how hard it can be. I will miss everyone at the Village and Logan Beware we are on our way. :)

My Worth

I may be alone in this but there are times where I don't feel like I have anything to contribute that is worth anything and if I have something I am not very good at it. Trivia I stink at, spelling and grammer has always been hard for me, Starting a conversation is a struggle sometimes, and even though I sometimes get discouraged with this there is one thing that I can't deny. My Heavenly Father and His Son love me and see my worth. So with that in mind I am greatful for the things I am good at and as Ether 12:27 says perfectly..."And if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them."

Trials and blessings

There is one question that always seems to come to my mind. Why do we go through trials. As many may know. I went into emergency surgery last Thursday. It completely caught us off guard. As I have been looking at the situation that we went through, looking at the events that lead to the surgery I can't help but to feel that the Lord was with me the whole time. Yes the surgery was scary and yes it was serious, but coming out of it I have realized that the many people whole helped me in my times of need. Doctors who worked hard to make sure everything went well. Neighbors and family who have helped and are helping me still. Thank you everyone :). Here are a few of the tender mercies that I received during this trial.

1. A couple days before the surgery Devon mentioned that the healing power of the blessing of the sick depends on the faith of the one receiving the blessing. The night before the surgery I received a blessing and so with that in mind I really tried my best to have faith in my Father that everything will turn out okay and it did.What a great Blessing that was and a great testimony builder as well.

2. Devon made it back in time to see me after the surgery. He was in Logan. That totally made my day.

3. Jaylee was watched over the whole weekend by my wonderful mother in law. That was one less worry that day cause I didn't have to worry about her and I could rest like I needed to.

4. Jaylee has been a joy since she has been home. Yeah she is still a 2 year old, but she has been great with the transition of crib to bed. That way I don't have to pick her up to put her in bed. :)
and she has been going to sleep for nap time and bed time. Woot :)

We got a Camera!!

How Exciting is this. Devon surprised me with a camera for graduation. So I was able to take pictures. I am so proud of Devon for all his accomplishments. He has done a great job in school and I am excited for him to continue on with his education.

Jaylee had a rough day with all the graduation stuff. Near the end she just wanted to go play. Luckily grandparents are great for that. I was able to enjoy the whole day and not worry about Jaylee getting restless.

This is Me and Jaylee waiting for the Commencement to start. She did really good at the beginning of our day.

This is a cute picture of her sitting there so good. Didn't last long though. After all she is only 2.

Time Flies

For those of you that don't know, April is Birthday month for the Winkler family. Devon turns 25 on the 26th, Jaylee is 2 on the 29th, and I am 24 on the 15th. One thing is for sure is that it is an expensive month for us. Luckily we save up for the great events. We also do a Winkler birthday extravaganza which is quite fun. Last year Jaylee got to eat her first birthday cake and loved every minute. It is so amazing how time flies though. It seems like yesterday that I met Devon for the first time, then got married, then when we brought Jaylee home from the Hospital now we are on our feet all the time. Jaylee has so much energy and I don't know if I can keep up sometimes. One thing is for sure and that Is I can't imagine my life without Jaylee or Devon. Devon and I will be married for 3 years on the 23rd of May. Wow 3 years went fast. Devon is getting his Bachelor's degree and we are hopefully, if things go according to our plans, moving to Logan. Devon is excited cause we will be closer to his family, and has always wanted to go to Utah State. The plan is that He is going to get a Masters in Computer Science, and then hopefully will be done. We are waiting till school is out here to apply to Utah State and looking for jobs as well. That way the transition will hopefully be less stressful. Until then I am going to enjoy living in the Village. We have loved living here. I have made many good friends and hope that it doesn't take as long to make more when we move. I know that I will be happy with whatever happens. Life is good. Yay for April. Its a great month. :)